this is so yesterday. (just wanted to reblog from blogsecret.tumblr) :)

16210.) I thought we were everything. I thought we had everything.

There were problems, yes, but there is no such thing as perfection. I didn’t want any problems other than yours and mine. We FINALLY had forever, but then you had to fuck up and leave me behind. You say you love me, you say you won’t forget me, you say all of this shit. I don’t even know what to believe anymore and I feel so empty trying to move on without you. What am I supposed to do with you gone? Physically gone, emotionally gone, completely gone. You want me to forget about you, but I can’t do that. You know I can’t do that. You were supposed to be my first and only, how am I supposed to forget you??

I always thought I would be the one to leave, not you.

I miss you and it hurts so much.

I can only hope a few months from now, a few years, who knows, but sometime in the future, you will finally come back to my house and surprise me, just show up on my doorstep. Maybe I won’t recognize you, maybe you’d change all of your bad habits, maybe you would still love me. Maybe you would be exactly the same, but maybe, hopefully, you will still let me drown in your hugs and the scent of you because that’s all I want. I need you so much..