grace island getaway.

ako ngaun ay kayumanggi. and im soooowwww hapeyyyy. akala ko talaga wala n akong pagasa makapgbeach ngaung summer, buti may pahabol pa.. :D

buti nalang nalibre ni mayor ng bangka. XD pumunta ako ng isla with UP Mindorenos para magsaya after ng upcat review. and hndi lang uber kaligayahan ang inabot namin, uberrr sunburn din.

last week i was just dreaming of going to grace island and i didn’t really expect na matutupad agad yun. ang ganda kasi ng pictures na nakikita ko. parang small paradise. small boracay. and so we were really excited nung sinabi ni mayor na pupunta kami dun! and s super excite ko, i bought too much chicha. marami nga pala kami so marami din mngdala ng food. haha. tanan!

nasa san jose lang ang grace island, and tubong san jose din ako kaya hindi ko na pinalampas ang pagkakataon n sumama.haha. loser much. di ko p nararating ang mga isla sa palibot.

sa sobrang excite ko hndi ko n namalayan kung anung oras kami nakarating. tenen! hndi ako natuwa masyado s nakita ko nung dumating kami. bakit?? kasi iba yung nasa pictures.hahaha. wala yung white sand. and maliit pala yung island. *dapat tlaga no expectations para no disappointments XD pero aus lang dahil superrr enjoy kami magbalsa! at clear ang tubig. starpis. andaming starpis. and sea orrrchin. and andami din pis. may torrtel. (oh! we saw dolly on our way tp grace. no agua. *sigh*) nakakatuwa talaga. salamat sa life vest dahil nakasurvive ako. :) kaso hindi ko nagawa ang lage kong ginagawa, hindi ako nakatalon sa tubig. hindi ako nakaligo ng maayos kasi mulalim. ay naligo ako by accident. tumaob yung balsa eh. hindi ako kaya. XD

syempre hindi mawawala ang moni session. bitin pero aus lang. we played cards, and kung sino ang loser tatagay. and dahil super swerte ko s cards, marami rami akong nainom.pakshet. *tang time na* ganyan ko lang inumin ang alak..hahaha.

after magmoni, nagbalsa ulit. lumipat s kabilang side ng island, ang linawww ng tubig. buti may gogels, nakakadungaw ako sa munting mundo ng starpis. nilibot din namin ang island at naamaze pa lalo sa view, sa mga rock formation.

at dahil low tide na nung hpon, dun ko super naappreciate ang island. dun lumabas yung hinihintay kong white sand.haha. dun lumbas ung hichurang nakita ko s picture. buti nalang. it was very relaxing view. pinaligaya ako ng husto ng lotide. nakumpleto rin sa wakas ang buhay ko.haha.

i had a really fun-filled experience with the org.

i shall return. haha. yeah. for sure. there are a lot of secrets here in my hometown kaya dapat iexplore ng bongga.

takte nga palang battery, wla tuloy silbi ang dala kong cam.haha.

Hope - Twista Feat. Faith Evans

Cuz I'm hopeful, yes I am, hopeful for today,
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away,
And be hopeful (hopeful) and he'll make a way
I know it ain't easy but that's okay.
cause we hopeful

sarreh.

siguro hanggang sa matapos ang pbb eh magpopost ako about dun..XD ibalik si yong. haha.. affected lang sa nangyayari. it's because wala ako pinagkakaabalahan ngaun. :c goodnight

ay putangna na yan.

masyado nmn ako apektado sa pbb.haha..tangna lang..ay aywan. ako ay niirita. tangna lang..hayyy..will delete this, i dont know when.

[ClashClip24/7 524

ewan ko. ang hirap magblame. both sides expressed their feelings. siguro masyado lang nakaka-offend ang rap ng pinoy hsmates. sabi ni joe, kakausapin nalng nila ang teenter (about rematch/to compete) but big bro said do it in a creative way. KUNG ANO ANG NASA PUSO NILA. so nag-rap sila. pero mukang naging masyadong mean ang song. the teenters were really hurt. they thought that was what they (pinoy) really feel. na naplastik sila or what. siguro the pinoy hsmates could've asked nicely, or could've rapped it in a nice way, or with nice msg. pero hndi eh. sokaya nagburst ang teenter.

pero naintindihan ko din naman n nagawa yun ng pinoy hsmates bec of pressure, and frustration and disappointment and just like what joe said, naging desperado na sila.. pero ewan ko. ewan ko na. ewan ko na. nasaktan ang lahat. big bro's really waiting for this to happen. higher ratings again. oh well, what to expect. this is a game.

(ok.it's almost 3am.wala n ako maisip.i'll add more if ever may maisip ulit ako. XD)

i hate myself.

nahhhh...natutuwa lang ako sa mga nangyayari. mixed emotions. fuck depota deputa.tonguena.

then im hapi na.hapi.hapi.:)

then O_0 O_0 O_0 O_0

then i was like ^____^

goodnight.

james reid singing you belong tih me

JAMES REID! yes, nababaliw ako sa kgwapuhan mo..LOL. you belong with me!

depota.deputa.III

potangna!

potangna!

potangna!

potangna!

potangna!

will deleted this after 1 day. or maybe not!

im so mad right now.

depota.deputa.II

i just cant get over for what big brother did to tricia. oo. tama. ang sinisisi ko ay si big bro. mahirap iblame sa housemates ang hindi nila pagpunta dahil decision nila un eh. so im blaming big brother dahil ipinagawa nia iyon. it is very clear to him kung ano ang situation ni tricia with other housemates. now what! tricia even felt more rejected! putang ina! /pardon for my bad words/ sa lahat ng ayaw ng isang tao ay ang feeling ng rejection. that's what you did big brother!!! sobrang sakit nun for a 15-year old! hindi mo ba alam yun! gaaahhhhh! pbb's getting into my nerves!!!

siguro nga tama yung nabasa ko from one of the posts in tumblr, you did that to gain profit. syempre, dahil madali makisimpatya ang tao, you did that. maaawa nga naman ang marami kay tricia. nominated sya, so maraming magvovote s kania bec of that. more votes, more money. (quoting jaredramos.tumblr). pasalamat ka BB at strong ang personality ni tricia. nakayanan nia pang ihandle ang mga ginagawa sa kanya.

and for the other housemates. wag kayo magmalinis! lahat ng tao may flaws! at pota isa kayo dun! you're saying she's a flirt?! eh ano pang tawag kay patrick?! tangna talaga. potapotapotapotapota.

masakit sakin yung nangyari kay tricia. alam kong napakasakit na mareject ka ng mga tao/friends kaya ganito nalang ang galit ko sa ginawa nila.

srsly, the worst episode of pbb teen clash. (may20,2010 episode)

this is so me.

“You built up a world of magic because your real life is tragic.”

—	Brick by Boring Brick // Paramore

wala ako maisip na title.

deputa.

ok so hindi maganda ang gabi ko.

napaka unexpected talaga ng buhay.

pinaiyak ako ng pbb

• dahil sa ginawa kay tricia (kahit hindi ako fan, kawawa pa rin. bakit kelangan gawin un ni big brother, ang sarap nia awayin nagun.napakasakit nun. sigurado marami magrereact. ay marami n nga pala, twitter, fb tumblr. lahat na.)
• nagbrownout hindi ko natapos, sinubukan kong manuod ng live stream per0 namn! naman! naman! naman! puro error sa connection.

may kaaway ako ngaun. minsan lang ako magalit sa buhay ko at nabigla ako sa sarili ko dahil ngaun lang ulit ako sumabog ng ganun. at nakakainis dahil pag nagagalit ako eh umiiyak lang ako. hell. shit. at naiiyak pa rin ako. hahaha..ang bigat naman sa pakiramdam ng nagagalit. kaya ayoko ng feeling na galit eh. kaya mabait ako.wahaha.. masama talaga pag sumasabog ang mga mababait. mukang di ko na nacontrol kanina ang galit ko. brownout kasi eh. LOLjk. hindi un ang reason.haha.

so ngaun naghahanap ako ng makakapagpagaan ng loob ko kaya dito ko nalang susubukan ilabas.hahaha.

naghahanap ako ng magandang music.

naghahanap ako ng mapupuntahan kaso wala naman ang mga kaibigan ko dito.

kaya dito nalang sa tumblr.hahaha.

yeah.shit.pi.hellllllll….

i cont sleep.

listening to lemon tree, rainy day, closer, fall for her, nothing, welcome sun, nothing, wild days, and nothing. Fool’s Garden

i always sing lemon tree in videoke (dati, its all coming back and wannabe.LOL) like hell yeah, like yeah..haha.. at kahit sila nanay ko naman ang nagvivideoke paminsan, tatawagin ako para lang sa lemon tree. i wonder why. (minsan alone. yez, pinagkakatuwaan ako for that. haha) ang cute ng music eh (pati yung rainy day). i feel so relaxed kapag napapakinggan ko un.

at dahil napansin kong palagi ko ng kinakanta ang lemon tree at pinapakinggan ang ibang songs Fool’s Garden, i changed my url (sa tumblr) to foolsgarden. ang dami kong iniisip dati kung ano ba ipapalit kong url, and then poof! after so dami daming isip isip, bkit di nalang foolsgarden? tutal madalas ko silang pakinggan ngaun at napapasaya ng music nila boring summer ko. ;p (although im not really a hardcore fan) masyado lang talaga akong natutuwa sa ilang music nila.:D kaya foolsgarden na! yey!

meron pa sana akong idadagdag kanina, pero nakalimutan ko nanaman. damn. whattabrain. uggghhh. at matagal na nga pala ako nagpalit ng url. LOL.

it’s almost 2am at hindi pa rin ako makatulog. wala na ako magawa. kaya im posting this. wala na rin kasi ako maisip. haha. wala. wala. wala. sondtrep nalang.

truth be told, i miss you

and truth be told im lying!

when you see my face hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell.........

Broken Heart Acoustic - Motion City Soundtrack

i love this song. nakaka lss. at nakakarelate ako..haha.. what a nize zong. i love it.

formspring.me

ask whatever http://formspring.me/carmelareena

depota.deputa.I

haha.apologies for the bad words guys. depota naman kasing pagkabagal ng net ngaun.. hoooo.. ayan nakahinga na ako ng maluwag (mejo lang).

ang sakit ng tyan ko.fffuuuuuuuu

kanina pa ako pabalik balik.fckkkkkk

im watching fiddler on the roof right now. and i am also reading onemanga (shiawase kissa). and also browsing the net for whatever. oyeah,multitasking, ehh.haha...

hay depopo naman talaga namang internet are'.

lazybone.

my "cut outs of my life project na supposedly nagsimula kahapon pa ay hindi ko p nagagawa..haha...

this is so yesterday. (just wanted to reblog from blogsecret.tumblr) :)

16210.) I thought we were everything. I thought we had everything.

There were problems, yes, but there is no such thing as perfection. I didn’t want any problems other than yours and mine. We FINALLY had forever, but then you had to fuck up and leave me behind. You say you love me, you say you won’t forget me, you say all of this shit. I don’t even know what to believe anymore and I feel so empty trying to move on without you. What am I supposed to do with you gone? Physically gone, emotionally gone, completely gone. You want me to forget about you, but I can’t do that. You know I can’t do that. You were supposed to be my first and only, how am I supposed to forget you??

I always thought I would be the one to leave, not you.

I miss you and it hurts so much.

I can only hope a few months from now, a few years, who knows, but sometime in the future, you will finally come back to my house and surprise me, just show up on my doorstep. Maybe I won’t recognize you, maybe you’d change all of your bad habits, maybe you would still love me. Maybe you would be exactly the same, but maybe, hopefully, you will still let me drown in your hugs and the scent of you because that’s all I want. I need you so much..

13 year old lady gaga paparazzi cover

ang galing!!

cut-outs!

oh yes! sana gumising ulet ako with good vibes tomorrow! at sipagin ulet ako bukas. i plan to start my "cut-outs of my life" project.

this.

16208.) sometimes, there’s no way i can write my thoughts down. I always think twice. What if i don’t say the right thing. what if someone see’s my another way after I write it. So i’ll just keep them to myself, and my life will always be my own question.

-blogsecret.tumblr.com

i feel the same.

MAKE or BREAK for our country

oh Lord spare us from another suffering this country might experience...sana maging maayos ang kalabasan ng result. (sana ung deserving ang manalo) sana red.LOL. may the most deserving candidates win.AMEN! c:

P.S. PCOS, gawin ng tama ang iyong responsibility. i know it's hot here in PI but try not to overheat while counting the votes..we are counting on you!haha (ok, panget) haha...

DEPARTURES - the movie from Here Films and Regent Releasing.

DEPARTURES - the movie from Here Films and Regent Releasing.

i could change the world (err, my country)

yosh! i just did my responsibility as a citizen of this country...nakapag boto na ako. first time! and i was really nervous. i was afraid my ballot will not be read. and yes i was right..nah..haha nung una hindi sya naread, (there's always a second chance nga naman, so nung tinry ulit ipasok, naread din sya sa wakas!haha...

i dont feel like blogging right now. ciao....

cheers for the change of this country...

i voted for RED.

at least one post a day

to all the mothers out there

thanks to champorado

naalala ko na ang ipopost ko sana kanina…

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my beltbag’s getting really big. i need to get rid of it..haha…

how annoying :/

i was about to post a text on tumblr, pero nakalimutan ko agad kung ano un. im so p-o'ed (naks, may natututunan na ako. thanks to urban dictionary) Haha...

argghhhh...but im really annoyed. why do i have to be so forgetful. fudge!

it's because

i forget things easily...

LOL

i think i overused this word to my previous posts...it's not really funny using this. haha

i got the definition from Urban Dictionary.

ok so maybe il lessen (or maybe stop) using LOL.

_________________________

It's original definition was "Laughing out loud" (also written occasionally as "Lots of Laughs"), used as a brief acronym to denote great amusement in chat conversations.

Now, it is overused to the point where nobody laughs out loud when they say it. In fact, they probably don't even give a shit about what you just wrote. More accurately, the acronym "lol" should be redefined as "Lack of laughter."

Depending on the chatter, its definition may vary. The list of its meanings includes, but is not limited to:
1) "I have nothing worthwhile to contribute to this conversation."
2) "I'm too lazy to read what you just wrote so I'm typing something useless in hopes that you'll think I'm still paying attention."
3) "Your statement lacks even the vaguest trace of humor but I'll pretend I'm amused."
4) "This is a pointless acronym I'm sticking in my sentence just because it's become so engraved into my mind that when chatting, I MUST use the meaningless sentence-filler 'lol.'"

by no_one_2000 Aug 10, 2005

hell-rock-paper-scissors

poor doraemon

yeehaaa

im waiting.waiting.waiting for my things from elbi. :D

meron na akong pagkakaabalahan sa wakas.

im freezing in the sun

ang init! at dahil mainit i cant think of anything. nothing at all. really. nothing..............................................................................LOL. maybe i woke up with good vibes. nakapaglaba kasi ako ngayon. [achievement] since i am the type of person who doesnt move much. because i am tooooo laaaazzzzzyyyyyyyyyy.....(oh but i really enjoy outdoor acitvities: hiking act. trekking, etc...) para kasing pag andito ako sa loob ng bahay tinatamad na ako kumilos. kasi this is my comfort zone. eto yung area ko na makakapagtamad tamaran ako.

my everyday ritual:

• wake up early, nah, late...(around 9-10am)
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• lunch
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• dinner
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• fb.tumblr.blogspot.onemanga
• bedtime

yah i DONT have a life.

wala ako silbi. LOL.

im reallr lazy to do anything other than those.

and i really love to daydream.

(konek nung title?ewan.LOL)

night with legends

may42010

this should've been posted days ago pa. oh nevermind.

that night i was really high on drugs. LOLjk. im, or should i say we're,..ok. we're high not because of drugs but because of our very own PBA legends. they went here and played with our selected players. that was really fun. i went out with my two gal pals, mamai and kim. (btw, much thanks for the treat mai! and kim for the camera! :D) we were not that really excited at first. (hndi nga ba?hehe), we came late..uhm, one hour late? thirty mins? oh i cant remember, basta we're late.LOL..we entered the gym with fresh looks but super crowded naman! like you'll exchange your face with the person next to you (haha, okay exag)..really, sa sobrang crowded eh ang pabango m, pabango na rin ng katabi m. and so we made our way out of that hell, err no, i mean crowd. standing ovation ang mga remyk!( that's REna,MYlene,Kim) LOL. pero syempre nakahanap din kami ng upuan, luck is on our side. ^_^

and then after many many many many minutes of waiting, nagstart n ang game. that's when our excitement went out of nowhere. we were screaming and shouting and screaming and shouting and scre...ok over..haha..eh sobrang excited talaga. papa alvin patrimonio was there! and val david and papa johnny abarrientos! and that big guy feihl and basta legends. LOL.

it was really funny coz our players are small compared to them (oh but younger so maliksi sila!). wala pa kami cam nung una kaya hindi namin ncapture ang moments ng player with this really funny outfit (my rant: bakit kasi hindi ginawan ng uniform ang players namin!ang panget tuloy tignan), ok going back,..hmm bakit funny? eh ksi funny ung looks nia dahil sa suot nia.haha..with green jersey and pink shorts..and long socks. im really eager to know kung sino ang stylist nung player na un..LOL. but they really did their best in the game. (tambak nga lang in the end.haha)

during breaks, pwede magpapicture with the legends. and because of that, napilit namin (or ni mamai lang.haha) na pauwiin si kim at kunin ang cam (realllyyy thank you for the effort bot!). so hinatid namin si kim palabas and poof! nagkachance kami ni mamai na makalapit (upper box lang kasi ung ticket) at makahanap ng pwesto s baba. *luck is on our side*

"mai wala tau camera. =("

and then pag tingin ko may kausap na si mamai, *oh really we're so lucky* buti nlng andun ang relatives nia so nakahiram kami ng cam!

dahil nga im so lame, hindi ko makita si papa alvin. "san mai!?" "aunnn!!!!!!"

okay so super swerter talaga..haha..nakapagpapicture kami with papa alvin.. *kinikilig*

after that first picture with him hindi n maalis ang ngiti ko.hahaha

dumating n si kim with her cam and we managed to change our location..muwahahaha..as in super lapit na sa players.

we waited until the game ended. (i remembered, yung madlang pipol nagsitakbuhan na s gitna before pa mag end ung last 2mins.haha)

crowded.crowded.and fudge crowded.

hndi lang sariling pawis namin kundi pati pawis ng kung sino mang nilalang ang nasa balat namin. kelangan tiisin un para lang makapagpapicture with the legends. LOL. syempre di nmn kami papayag n wala noh. in our each na si papa alvin at papa johnny eh!

dhil sa liit ko pinagtulakan lang ako ng tao.=( ahha..so naiwan ako sa isang tabi at si mamai at kim nakapagpapicture with other players. i envy mamai! picture with papa johnny..huhu..wala kami pic with papa val..pero aus lang,,nabangga ko naman sya at masaya na ako dun..ganun ako kababaw.LOL

so after the loonggg wait, nakapagpapicture at nakakiss pa kami with papa alvin! so bangag tlaga kami! ndi ginagalaw ang right cheek. LOL. kelangan kami bigyan ng kalamnsi para maalis ang ngiti namin nun! hahaha..sobra kinikilig ang tatlo..hahhaa...then super gm with other barkada. "SULIT ANG ISANG KISS SA CHEEK".

hanggang sa kumain at paguwi, ganito ang smile namin ^_______________________^

pagbigyan nio na ko, sobra talaga ko kinilig nun. because i like papa alvin! he's so humble. and pogi and pogi and gwapo and pogi. LOL

oh what a night. sana maulit un! and il surely hug papa alvin kapag naulit un! masyado kasi ako nabighani ng kanyang kagwapuhan.LOL.

really fun experience. sana maulit. =)

tumblr.

follow.

regrets to forget

it's been a month since i decided to stay here. since i decided to take this path. since (okay so tagalog na.LOL) okay guys, im not serious person, i know, i know. pero im always bothered by my extreme lazyness, eh. u get that?huh? im too lazy to do anything. im too lazy to move. im too lazy to think. feeling ko nga wala n ako utak. why? uh because, uhhh, err..it's just because i dont have any brains. tinatamad na ako magisip. kaya im writing this now habang may naiisip pa ako. LOL. am i making any sense here? oh well, i dont care if i dont. and another one thing that's bothering me ay yung decision ko to decline for that position. ngayon hindi ko na alam kung tama na mas pinili ko dito nalang sa amin and wait for that another offer from another organization in june. nawawalan n ako ng hope and tiwala sa sarili ko na makukuha ko ang position n un. hindi ko na alam kung may patutunguhan pa ang paghihintay ko. everyday tu...(i checked my tumblr and poof! nawala ung nsa isip ko na ittype sana.LOL.stpdme.).....(im back!) everyday tumataas ang takot ko! ung takot nga na hindi n ako maging deserving para sa position na hinihintay ko!!!ang kulit..ko..haha.... alam m ung feeling na ganun? (hindi?) hmm, kasi ganito un eh...... un! nakuha m b?? basta ung feeling na nawawalan n ako ng pagasa. with the way i am now, parang hindi ko na maramdaman n deserving ako. na magaling ako. na kayang kaya ko un. minsan iniisip ko nabulag este nabingi lang siguro ako sa mga magagandang salita nuon sakin n kaya ko un. but as days passed by, hindi ko n naramdaman un.

...but then again, i dont live my life with regrets. so lahat ng nasabi ko sa taas ay [totoo] isasanatabi ko na. minsan ang madalas magpahamak sa atin ay what if's.. pero madami ako nian sa buhay because im indecisive. i cant figure out what to do sa mga ilang situations. dahil indecisive ako, i sometimes end up with wrong choices....

what if tinanggap ko un? siguro masaya ako ngaun dahil may trabaho ako at nasa syudad pa with my friends. siguro im now receiving benefits and opporunities, siguro i am now embracing a whole new world, nah, ng bonggang bonggang new experiences. siguro ang dami ko ng natututunan ngaun.

*sigh*

and then...

what if natanggap ako dun sa june opening? eh di ang saya ng buhay ko. masaya ko dahil may trabaho na ako at nasa sarili kong lupa with may family. siguro nkakatanggap ako ng sobrang kasiyahan dahil s nature of work ko. siguro il be embracing my whole life as it is and'll be contented. makakaexperience ako ng adventures and extreme challenges...siguro marami din akong matututunan.

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and so para matigil na ang kahibangan ko, i always end up with my principles in life:

• more over to the bright side of life
• hakuna matata
• live with no regrets
• embrace life as it is
• be optimistic
• be more confident (okay, im still working on this)
• detach (this seems to be one of my favorite word. "okay ngaun u have regrets, sige lang manghinayang ka ngaun then bukas let it go. detach from that stpd regret of yours. marami pang feelings sa mundo, try m naman iexperience ung iba." yan parang ganyan.)

so now i'll try not to be bothered by it anymore. (try lang) *sigh*. kanina naisip ko n kung pano ko tatapusin tong blog na to, but because im so lame and helpless, nakalimutan ko....(will take a break, baka maalala ko)LOL...(aun) il try not to be afraid. il to be more confident. siguro kasi masyado lang ako madali matakot at maduwag sa mga bagay kaya ko naisip lahat yan. kaya nidown ko ang sarili ko..oh well, i feel much better now.

someone please help me coz i need more encouraging words right now. a comment is much appreciated. :)

doodle doodle doo

because i am too lazy to do anything. i always end up doodling and daydreaming. LOL.

cloud candy

i feel like eating cotton candy because of this photo. ^^ feels good to look up in the sky.

i cant remember if i was the one who took this photo. ^^ maybe it's my younger brother, or maybe not. oh i dont really know. haha. i have a really bad memory.